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hello and welcome to something i was supposed to hand in for english and never did! have fun! (based off of cravity's lore and whatever the fuck my teacher told me to add in here)



Allen walks briskly up to the box that sits on his school desk.

He doesn’t know when it got there or how it got there, but it's there now. It’s a tiny box, almost like a box you’d put a promise ring or a wedding ring in. There’s a velvet colour to it and Allen half expects someone to pop out of nowhere and propose to him, but it doesn’t happen.

He stands over his desk and stares at the box for a while, not reacting. He only registers his surroundings when his teacher tells him to sit down. He does just that, but he can’t focus on the lesson that is being taught to him.

The velvet box sits menacingly in the corner of Allen’s desk. It scares him in a way that shouldn’t, but a weird aura that Allen can’t describe surrounds the box and gives him an unnecessary amount of stress.

By the time the bell goes for lunch, Allen is still staring at the box and he now has a paper sitting on his desk.

What do you want to do in the future?

God, Allen hates that question. Freedom, he thinks off-handedly.

He stares back at the box, but he can’t think about anything else. It’s like that damn box is stopping Allen from thinking about anything else, so he grabs the box angrily, opening it roughly.

There’s a note in there, he takes out the note gently, careful enough to not rip it at least. He opens it.

Find them. It says.

It’s the only thing on the note and Allen stares for a long while.

Find who exactly? Who is them, and why does Allen need to find them?

He gets up quickly and harshly, shoving the chair back into the desk behind his as he does so.

He packs his things up quickly, shoving the small box into his pocket, before rushing out of the classroom.

When he’s finally out, his best friends are there waiting for him.

There’s Serim, with recently dyed blue hair, Allen thinks he looks more handsome since he dyed it, and everyone else seems to think the same as well. Serim’s also the oldest out of the four friends. He’s like the leader of them, makes sure they’re all well fed, well hydrated and that they’ve done all of their schoolwork for the day.

Serim’s like an angel from above, if Allen had to describe him in three words.

Then there’s Jungmo. Compared to Allen, Jungmo’s a tower. There’s at least a third of a head between him and Jungmo and Allen finds himself staring up towards the tower of a man. His hair used to be an array of purples, but now it’s dyed a simple light brown, and if it wasn’t for his height, he’d blend in with the crowd.

The last of the four is Wonjin, who’s also the youngest of the four. Like Jungmo, his hair is also a simple light brown. He’s a lot shorter than Jungmo, but his defined features set him apart from the rest of the crowd. What Allen likes most about Wonjin is his bubbly personality, he never fails to cheer Allen up and it’s what he needs, especially being stuck in a hell hole like this school.

Allen’s only known the three of them for a year, but an interesting story he heard was of a dog leading an unsuspecting Serim to Jungmo, who ultimately led them to an unsuspecting Wonjin, who was painting a picture of the three of them.

What’s funny is that Wonjin had never seen these people before.

It has always confused Allen, but those three are attached to the hip now, so it must’ve been for the best that they met that day.

Allen was a transferee from America and immediately got attached to the three of them. They were amazing, lovely people and did everything in their power to make Allen feel as comfortable as he did with his new life in Korea.

He can suddenly see a random boy standing in front of Wonjin (like he teleported there), holding onto his hand, inspecting the purple crystal that’s wrapped around Wonjin’s wrist with a simple black band.

It’s all too confusing to Allen, he doesn’t know where this boy came from and suddenly he’s too close to Wonjin.

“Taeyoung-ah.” He hears from behind him and Allen turns around to inspect where the voice came from.

There’s another boy who stands there, not much taller than Allen himself, his face shows shock, eyes wide open, mouth hanging open slightly. His hair is a bright red that looks like it was dyed yesterday.

He looks back to who Allen can only assume is Taeyoung. He’s a lot taller than Allen himself, but not taller than Jungmo. His skin is tanner than anyone else Allen has seen at this school. His face shows youth, and he looks a lot younger than a high school student.

His hair is a dark brown, but strips of his hair have been dyed in a rainbow that goes horizontally.

There’s a splash of running water at his feet and then there’s commotion around him. He looks back up and Taeyoung’s nose is bleeding. Drops of bright red blood falling down his face slowly.

His pocket starts burning, the same pocket that he had the box inside. It burns so much that Allen needs to take it out.

He pulls it out, opens the box and then the note. There’s now names engraved below the find them.

Serim, Allen, Jungmo, then there’s a blank space, maybe for more names, Wonjin, another blank space, Hyeongjun, Taeyoung, and then nothing afterwards, but Allen assumes there’s one more name meant to go after Taeyoung’s, because of the comma.

He still doesn’t understand what he’s meant to do, or who he’s meant to find, but he’s already found six of the people he’s meant to find within the span of a few minutes.

The paper burns in his hand once again and Woobin shows up on the paper, after Jungmo and before Wonjin. He looks up and immediately sees someone walking up the stairs. Allen feels a pull from the boy who walks up the stairs and he runs towards him.

“Allen!?” He ignores the call of his name in favour of running up the stairs, grabbing onto the stranger’s arm.

“Hello?” The stranger questions, obviously confused at who this random person grabbing his arm is.

“Seo Woobin?” Allen asks, and the name falls perfectly out of his mouth, as if he’s known Woobin for years.

“Uh, yeah? Do I know you?”

“No? I think?” Allen’s confused even himself at this point. “Your name is on this piece of paper, I think it’s important.”

“Oh.”

There’s an awkward silence between the two, and Allen’s eyes can’t stay glued to a single spot on Woobin’s face. His soft but stern face is blank, showing not much emotion. There’s not much else that defines Woobin as Woobin, but his cheeks puff out like he has clouds stuffed there.

“Yeah, uh, sorry for bothering you.”

“No, it’s ok, I’m just about to meet Seongmin then Minhee, would you like to come?”

“Uh, sure?” Something about meeting this Seongmin and then this Minhee is important to whatever Allen is trying to accomplish with the little note he’s still hanging onto. Maybe Woobin feels this is important too.

They slowly make their way up the stairs and the awkward silence between the two is back. It’s understandable, they are complete strangers after all, right?

“Allen!” His name is called out once again and he stops, turning around to find his best friends and Hyeongjun and Taeyoung there as well.

He stops and waits for the six of them to catch up to him and Woobin.

“Where are you going? Who is this?” Serim asks questioningly, but Allen shrugs his shoulders.

“This is Woobin,” he says, “You need to come with us as well, all six of you.”

“We have class though?” Taeyoung speaks up hesitantly, as if scared to speak up to Allen.

“I think this is more important, Youngtae.” The nickname slips out before Allen can register it himself.

“How did you know that? Only Hyeongjun calls me that.”

“I…” Allen doesn’t know, “I think we all know each other, somehow.”

“I’ve never seen any of you in my life,” Woobin says, “Why do you say that?”

“This paper,” Allen sticks his hand out that holds the find them note with all their names engraved onto the paper. “This paper has our names on it, I think I’m only missing two.”

“It might be Seongmin and Minhee, let’s go.”

The group of seven climb the stairs and eventually reach the roof.

It’s a clear day, not a cloud in the sky and the sun is shining brightly over the roof. There’s a boy that stands away from the entrance of the roof, he’s leaning on the railing the encloses the roof, so no stupid kid can fall off.

The boy’s hair is black, but it sparkles in the sunlight causing Allen to wince.

“Seongmin!” Woobin calls out and Allen’s hand burns once again.

Seongmin. is now engraved after Taeyoung’s name with a full stop after it, showing Allen that there’s only one more person for Allen to find.

The air on the roof is clean, fresh, and Allen can almost taste that sweet taste of freedom that he so desperately wishes to have.

“Ah, Woobin,” Seongmin speaks, and his voice is very high pitched, if Allen could place how high his voice is on a keyboard, he’d shove it to at least a C5, maybe even a D5 (which is pretty high, especially for a teenage boy, he honestly still sounds like a child). “Who are these people?”

“I don’t know, but they’re really important right now Seongmin, we have to go find Minhee now, do you know where he is?”

“I think he’s at the lake in the middle of the forest, our parents are laying into him a lot lately, and his grades are going down because of it.”

“Oh, then we better get to him quickly.”

Allen can sympathise with Minhee. It’s hard living up to expectations, he’s heard stories from Serim, Jungmo and Wonjin about their parents expecting them to be better than the top students (even when it’s a bit too unattainable, and should be happy that they aren’t failing).

The amount of conversations the four of them have had on the thought of running away and being free is uncountable at this point.

The (now eight) of them start their trek to that lake that rests beautifully in the centre of a big forest that’s about a half-an-hour walk from their school.

Escaping school was a lot easier than they thought and soon enough they’re on their way to meet Minhee at the lake.

They all make quiet chit-chat on the way, and Allen finds out other facts about Woobin, Seongmin, Taeyoung and Hyeongjun, and that they all share the same sentiment of wanting to run away for a better life.

They eventually come towards the forest and enter it. The rustling of the leaves fill up the empty spaces and pauses in their sentences.

When they reach the lake they can see a boy sitting cross legged in front of the edge.

“Minhee!” Woobin calls out the attention of the boy who sits and he turns around, waving the other eight over. When Allen gets to Minhee the paper in his hand burns. He drags it up and he can see that Minhee is placed between Wonjin and Hyeonjun’s names.

“Hey.” Minhee says and he stands up.

The height of Minhee is impressive, very impressive, and he’s at least a head taller than Allen. (Why does everyone seem to be giants around Allen? This is a question he’ll never know the answer to.) His hair is black, similar to Seongmin’s, but it’s much longer, almost reaching his shoulders. Allen thinks it suits Minhee’s handsome face and if he didn’t know any better, he'd assume Minhee was a model from his astonishing looks.

“Took you all long enough.”

“Huh? What—” But before Allen can question him more, there’s a bright light that erupts from Wonjin’s bracelet and suddenly Allen can’t see, covering his eyes from the light, as if he’s scared he’s going to go blind.

When Allen can see again, the world looks exactly the same, but the paper in his hand burns, more intensely this time, and Allen flips the paper over to see more words engraved in the back.

i need to talk about realize for a moment. i’m so emotional over it it’s not even funny. i thought this was going to be my favourite track and it is, there’s no doubt about that, i’m crying right now over how pretty it is, i just can’t believe that this actually exists, and i can listen to the whole song now. this is definitely going onto the list of my comfort songs. the lyrics are so pretty, so mesmerising. they make me feel like i’m important to cravity, like they are to me. i can’t stop crying whenever it comes on. i love it so fucking much.

the whole album is fucking amazing. i’m still not entirely with the chorus of ‘sunrise’, but it’s growing on me. ‘believer’ grew on me a fuck ton, i love listening to it and it makes me excited for it to come on again. ‘breathing’,,,,, perfect, everything i expected and more. it’s a sentimental song, like ‘realize’, and it’s so pretty to listen to. ‘hot air balloon’ was exactly how i predicted. it was airy, nice, cute, a breath of fresh air. it had a subtle hint of ‘cloud 9’, but other than that it was it’s own song and i could tell it apart from the rest. ‘ohh ahh’ 😳 this was a ride. it fuckin’ slaps though, so i can excuse that it’s for the straights ❤️ i’m kinda happy they have a dance for this and hopefully they will promote it, ‘cause i enjoy it so much. and now, ‘flame’, it definitely exceeded my expectations. the mv teaser and album preview did not prepare me for the attack 😭 the mv was nothing like ‘break all the rules’ and there was so much going on. where they on MARS??? are they robots??? what the hell is happening 😭 don’t get me started on the dance, it’s so cool??????? those feet movements???? the dance is definitely a lot harder than ‘break all the rules’ was, but this dance seems a lot more fun to dance to, i already have some of the movements stuck in my head. serim and allen’s raps,,,,, don’t get me started on how COOL they sounded, allen’s second rap verse is so nice to listen to, and to hear serim high-toned rapping, it’s such a nice sound to listen to. jungmo bias wrecking me the whole time T____T not funny jungmo. minhee looked so pretty, his hair, his piercings, his voice ㅠㅠ minhee managed to wedge his way more into my heart with this song. woobin’s notes???? i knew he could sing, but damn,,, he blew me the fuck away, not going to lie, his line “빛을 향해 날아가 (flying towards the light)” made me kinda cry over how NICE it sounded coming from his mouth. seongmin looks so mature in this, it seems like his voice is finally getting deeper as well T__T he’s so pure normally, but him in ‘flame’ made me think otherwise. his BRIDGE. i’m definitely NOT ok with what went on there... TAEYOUNG. HAS. LINES. it’s so nice to hesr him more than once in their title track. his HAIR, was literally all the colours of the rainbow, he does it for the gays 🏳️‍🌈 hyeongjun was so nice to watch. the way he danced and sung so fluidly,,, he made me do double takes constantly, he definitely knows how to be mature when he needs to be... the mv was so aesthetically pleasing to watch. it was so clear and i could see how beautiful each individual member was. there was so much going on,,, i couldn’t focus on just one member at a time. the visuals in this video was insane, and i couldn’t break down the mv even if i wanted to. it’s a masterpiece, and definitely something i’d recommend everyone to watch.

i’m so happy with how their first comeback turned out, it was so pleasing to listen to and it’s a mv i will always go back to watch, no matter how far into the future we are, or how many comebacks have gone by since ‘flame’ was released, definitely giving the album and mv a whole ass 10000000/10

cravity. that’s it. cravity. i’m so overwhelmed with happiness. it’s so fucking good. no amount of teasers could have prepared me for what i’ve just heard. i was so not prepared for ‘break all the rules’ to be like that. i’m so in love it’s not even funny. it’s been so long since i’ve seen minhee and hyeongjun on stage and i couldn’t be happier. wonjin and jungmo are finally getting their chance to shine and i can’t. they’re so perfect, i’m so happy for them. i’m so happy for every member of cravity.

SERIM - our leader, serim. i was nothing short of enamoured at how amazing your rap skills were. to be honest, i was so enamoured that i didn’t even realise that allen was a rapper and i think that’s the funny thing. i can already see you shooting really fast up my bias list it’s not even funny. you’re going to be an amazing leader, i can already see it. i can’t wait to see how you lead cravity, and i can’t wait to see more of your amazing rapping. 

ALLEN - not going to lie, thought you were a vocalist at first, but finally getting over serim made me see that you were a rapper, but it just made me enamoured by you. it’s not everyday a foreigner can rap in another language and i think you did do it perfectly. your english is so good i’m crying. i know you do come from los angeles, but that doesn’t stop me from crying over how pretty it is. i can’t help but feel like you’re mad at me for some reason, but i hope that changes in the future!

JUNGMO - my god have you grown up jungmo. i’ve watched you from the start of pdx and my god was it a wild ride. i’ve watched you grow into the person you are today, and it makes me really happy knowing i’ve seen you grow into the adult you are today. i was not expecting you to start break all the rules, but it was a very welcomed surprise. can we just talk about your hair for a little bit? it’s so pretty i can’t even begin to start on how it makes my heart go dugeun dugeun. from now, let’s walk on a flowery path jungmo. it’s going to be easier now.

WOOBIN - i knew you were an amazing vocalist but not this good? if i knew this is how powerful your vocals are, i would’ve loved you harder from the moment i first saw you and your “weekies”. you’re perfect and i hope you know that very well woobin. hearing you in break all the rules just makes me want to love you even more than i did before if that’s even possible?? your vocals really bring the song to life, and the way you handled it on your debut stage? chef’s kiss. delicious. i love you woobin, and if i knew this before, i would’ve loved you harder earlier. 

WONJIN - just like jungmo, you’ve gone through so much wonjin and i’ve been there since day one. holy fuck have you grown up. i’m so happy that i was able to be there from day one to now to watch you grow up like this. from pdx, to cravity, you’ve really made a place in my heart wonjin. i hope you walk on a flowery path from now on too, wonjin, i would hate for anything to happen to you, after everything that you’ve gone through. things will be better wonjin, i know it. 

MINHEE - dont get me started on you, minhee. you are single handedly the most important person in my life, it’s not even funny at this point. just like jungmo and wonjin, i’ve watched you from the very beginning (yes, even when you were chosen to rap. i refuse to watch that even to this day), and you’ve grown up so beautifully, it’s so satisfying to watch. from pdx, to x1, and finally, to cravity, it’s been such a long ride hasn’t it? but you’re finally here now, and that’s all that matters in the end. please don’t be afraid to share anything with us. i know for sure, that for years to come, i will be one of your number one supporters. i love you, so much more than you know minhee. finally, in cravity, you’re getting so much more than what you got in x1, and if i’m being honest, i prefer you being here where you’re more loved, where your voice and talent is more loved.

HYEONGJUN - you’ve gone through so much shit hyeongjun, but hey, you’re still here today, and you’re doing so amazingly, i couldn’t be prouder. you should be proud of yourself too hyeongjun. like jungmo, wonjin and minhee, i’ve been here with you from the start and i will be with you from now on, forever. let’s live forever shall we hyeongjun? you have taken a spot in my heart as an important person and i couldn’t be happier that it’s you, hyeongjun. from pdx, to x1, to now, in cravity, i’ve watched you grow so much, and it scares me how mature you are now. everything will be better now. 

TAEYOUNG - this is the first time i’m hearing you sing, or seeing you perform and i’m so proud of you. look where all that practice has gotten you. i saw you so much in the music video and that makes me so happy. you are one of my three biases in cravity and i’m so happy that it’s you. your voice is so pretty and so are you. like, how can a seventeen year old look so pretty??????? you’re the prettiest seventeen year old, ever, taeyoung and my jaw drops everytime i see you in my field of vision. i couldn’t have asked for a better bias. thank you taeyoung. i love you so so much.

SEONGMIN - holy fuck has this been a long time coming seongmin. i’ve looked at you so many times, but this is the first time i’ve ever seen you perform, and holy fuck was i impressed. i’ve known you since last year, but only ever saw you move for the first time on the eighteenth of march, 2020. let’s hope that i keep seeing you move for years to come. what i didn’t expect was your fucking voice? it’s so high? it suits you really well, but i’ll still be surprised every time i hear your open your mouth. i love you seongmin. even though i felt i didn’t hear you much, i’m probably not listening hard enough, but i hope more of your voice gets shown in the future. 

TOP OF THE CHAIN - fuck. that’s all i have to say. starting the album with this song is just spectacular. i first listened to this album with my headphones on, and my god was it a good choice. top of the chain really knows how to exist, it’s so stunning. i did not want the song to end. i want to put it on repeat and never stop playing the song. 

BREAK ALL THE RULES - let’s break all the rules cravity!! this has to be the first debut i’ve ever been this excited for. before the mv even fucking started i was already crying. when it did start, i knew i was in for one hell of a treat. from serim, to allen, to jungmo, to woobin, to wonjin, to minhee, to hyeongjun, to taeyoung, and to seongmin, i’m really in love. the music video was stunning, again, i couldn’t stop crying. i want to listen to this on repeat for the rest of my fucking life. i’m finally seeing minhee get the lines and the centre position he deserves. finally seeing wonjin, jungmo, hyeongjun and minhee together again, is really a sight to behold. this song and music video are all i could have ever asked for. thank you. thank you produces and the mv director for this beauty. 

JUMPER - jumper fucking jumper, it was produced by jooheon and i couldn’t have been happier. (half expecting changkyun to pop out of nowhere with his “i am what i am” bullshit.) it sounds so much like a monsta x song, but i enjoyed it none the less. it’s such a hype song that i just can’t help but bop my head to it. 

BLACKOUT - another hype song, but i am so not mad. i’m normally not into there being so many hype songs in one album, but i think because it’s cravity i am ok with it... it’s such a good song and i’m just very in love with it. (those synths!!!!!)

낯섦 (STAY) - “you’re everything i need, because you’re everything i need” 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 I’M LOVE THEM. it’s a lot softer than the first four songs but i’m so happy for it!!! it’s definitely one of my favourites from the album! it’s just so! pretty! the bridge! pretty pretty pretty. 

CLOUD 9 - i’m literally on cloud nine with this song. it just lifts my spirits so much, i feel so much happier when this song starts playing. it sounds so refreshing. if i was sad, i know this song would cheer me the fuck up. the “only thing i need is you” in the rap is so precious. they really do love us, and we haven’t known all nine of them for a long time. 

별 (STAR) - BAL. 👏🏻 LARD. 👏🏻 THANK YOU. the fact that it was named star makes it even better. i can really feel the love that pours out from them in this song. i love them so much. they really did shoot up my bias list. i was not expecting it. star is so pretty and i hope i don’t lose it over time because it’s the last of the album. the put a lot into this song and i can feel it. 

everything about this debut was fucking perfect and i can’t stop thinking about it. i’m not going to stop listening to this album ever. not even when they have their comeback. i’m so happy with the members and the whole entire album, my heart fills so full around them. this is the only time i’m going to say it, but thank you starship. for everything you’ve done with cravity. from the songs, to the member choices, you really did amazingly for this group.

this one is for hyunbin!! i miss you baby and i hope you’re doing well!! i’m going to miss seeing you, it was unfortunate that we couldn’t see you debut with minhee, hyeongjun, jungmo and wonjin, but i wouldn’t have gotten one of the other members. i hope whatever you do in the future leads you to success hyunbin!!