To Kang Minhee; a very happy birthday (2020)

[kissingminhee]

 

kang minhee: my definition of perfect.

i really believe that there’s nothing this boy can’t do. i mean, he’s kang minhee, he’s got it all, talent, brains, visuals, height, he’s literally the definition of perfect and if you can’t see that then you must be blind. if i’m totally being honest, he’s the reason i’m living. i think a lot about what i’d be doing if he wasn’t here for me anymore and the only thought that comes to me is dead. it’s morbid, i know, but it’s true, i literally feel like i can’t live without him. he’s gotten me through so many rough patches, so it’s hard to see my life without him. he makes me feel loved, and happy to be alive. even when life, and school becomes too much for me, i can think of minhee and i immediately have a smile on my face. i’ve watched him grow up, from that little baby i first saw him as a year and a half ago, to now, where he excels at everything he does and there’s nothing he can’t do. i look at him and i get all giddy inside. i look foreword to seeing his stunning face the next day, and when i wake up. i want to be close to him, i want to be someone he can count on when he’s sad and unhappy. i want to tell him everyday that i love and support him, and i always will, it’s never going to change. i hope minhee knows how loved he is today, he deserves to hear it, he really does. he’s improved so much and i’m so fucking proud of where he is today. you can’t look at minhee and not fall in love with the dude. you can’t see his talents and not fall in love with him. this is minhee’s world and we’re all living in it at this point. his place in cravity is an important one, the way he supports them unconditionally and the way cravity gives that back to him. minhee is one of the purest people i know. he’s a simple boy and he doesn’t ask for much in return, but he literally deserves the world. i feel like in cravity he’s so so loves and i couldn’t ask for more. i’m so happy they’ve all stuck around minhee and given him so much love throughout the years to show he really is the perfect person and he deserves to know it. he deserves to know how much love he deserves, from not only cravity, but luvity as well. i’m so happy to be spending this day celebrating minhee’s birthday. i remember last year i forgot about it and i felt so bad for it 😭 but this year, i am here and i’m prepared!! i hope the x1 members are congratulating him too on his special day, it only seems right, they’ve seen minhee grow as much as he has as well. i’m crying a lot right now, this whole message is bringing up all the reasons i love minhee, and it’s honestly too much to count. there’s so much to love about him and nothing to hate (except that he can barely update us 😡 bro,,, it isn’t that hard 😭) i think i can say that i’m one of minhee’s biggest supporters, because i’ve never stopped loving that boy since the first time i laid eyes on him. people may say my constant talking about him is “annoying” and deep down i believe it, i really do. but it’s hard for that to come up when my mind doesn’t stop going “minhee minhee minhee” without thinking much of anything else. he’s living rent free in my mind and there’s nothing else i want from him, he can stay there forever 🥰 i’m so thankful for whatever life choices, or choices i made in my past life that made me meet minhee in this time, in this life. he’s the only one for me. i’d call him my soulmate if i believed in that and actually had romantic feelings for him, but i dont :’) and it doesn’t matter. you can still love and support someone without feeling the need to actually fall in love with them to become a true fan or some shit like that. but i’m glad people actually think i’m really and truely in love with him, because it just shows that i really do do my best as a nadeuldan, that i talk about him and support him so much, that people really do believe i’m truely in love with him. i hope today, especially, that he has the perfect day - it’s his birthday after all. even me, i feel like i’m on cloud nine despite it not being my birthday, all because it’s minhee’s day. i never thought i’d be celebrating someone’s birthday as hard as i plan on celebrating minhee’s, but here we are. i don’t think anyone or anything is going to bring my mood down today, i truely believe it, because my love for minhee rivals nothing, it’s clear that minhee’s going to win. it’s minhee’s birthday today, and i’m so glad that his parents decided that they were going to have a child, because otherwise, i wouldn’t have gotten kang minhee. if there’s something i’ve learnt about kang minhee ever since i first got to know him, it’s that he’s my definition of perfect and the reason i get up everyday. i hope he truely has an amazing day today, he deserves more than anyone to have an amazing birthday. he deserves to rest and to have a relaxing day, he’s earned it. i hope cravity, his friends and family are able to celebrate minhee’s birthday with him to let him know how loved he is. i’d love to tell him in person, and i really do hope i get to tell him one day. i’ve said so much that i’m actually surprised that i still have things i want to talk about, but i think i’ll leave it here. thank you for listening to me rant about how much i love minhee 🥰